I had every intention to blog on Monday for my second weigh-in results, but instead I spent the day looking through my new Weight Watchers cook book and looking for a good recipe that I could use to make dinner without going to the store. I ended up making a Parmesan Turkey Meatloaf.

I was a bit skeptical because the first time I willingly ate a Turkey Burger it was disgusting, but I have to say.. the Meatloaf came out really good. I guess it helps when I have the freedom to add what I want to it (within limits, of course). I used everything that was listed in the recipe, but I added more garlic and instead of using Thyme and Rosemary, I just used Italian Seasoning (which has both herbs in it anyway). And the best part, I can eat a really tasty meatloaf have plenty leftovers and it’s only 4 Weight Watcher Points!

In addition, the cookbook sorta inspired me. I thought it would be fun to keep tabs and take pictures of each recipe I try from the book and let you all know how it was! It might keep me blogging more often! I can share the recipe with you all when I get home from work if you’re interested!

Anyway I lost 4 MORE POUNDS last week! So exciting. That makes it a total of 9 pounds lost. I hear that the first couple weeks you always lose more weight due to losing water weight and that typically you lose 1-2 pounds per week, but I’m hoping I can continue to lose without any plateaus or any of that. So I’m going to work on boosting my activity and making the best possible choices with food.

This week I’ve not been too good about the activity though. I’ve been meaning to wake up early all week so I can fit in a Morning exercise but I overslept two days in a row. That’s okay, because I plan to step it up a notch for sure next week!

Anyway, I saw on Angel’s blog that she did a Ten Things I Love Thursday today from Gala Darling and I thought that would be a fun thing to do as well! So without further ado!

TEN THINGS I LOVE THURSDAY

Pants feeling loose instead of tight!

The smell of my Weight Watchers cookbook.

My new, yet to be named, doll!

Treasure Isle! Curse those addictive Facebook Games.

Chick-fil-a! I had some nuggets for lunch today. 6 Points!

The new World of Warcraft Referral Prize! DUAL-SEATER ROCKET!! Anyone want to try a 10-Day Trial?

MUSHROOMS! I had a salad last night loaded with mushrooms. So yummy.

My new camera? That counts right? Even though I haven’t even received it, yet!

The chilly weather! I’m hanging on to it so tight, I don’t want Summer to get here.

My Mom! She’s been being amazing dealing with my new Weight Watchers membership!

That about does it for today! Hopefully I can upload some pictures of the aforementioned new doll that finally arrived on Monday and when my camera arrives, more pictures, more often! Have a THUPER THURSDAY!

I’ve officially been a member of Weight Watchers now for a week! Which means today was my first time weighing in! I don’t know if I mentioned before, but I’m doing the Online Weight Watchers, which means I don’t have to attend a meeting to weigh in but it’s okay, I scheduled it to have my weigh ins on Mondays when I’m off. Using the Wii Fit to weigh myself. I was really surprised at how much I lost in the first week… wait for it…..

4.6 POUNDS!!!
So amazing! It had pumped me up and motivated me even more to keep at it. I feel so inspired and refreshed and full of life. Even before weighing in, I felt so confident and happy this weekend. I even went shopping at the Peninsula Town Center and went into Forever 21 and even though I knew most of that stuff probably couldn’t fit me, I was so stoked and full of hope that maybe someday in the future it could. They have great prices there and I never knew. Not to mention really cute accessories. Dad bought me a pair of peacock earrings which are so colorful and inspiring themselves. It even inspired me to order a bunch of colorful feathers and start making my own feather earrings.

In other news, I’m really glad for my weigh-in today because I went to bed pretty depressed last night and I feel it coming on again tonight. Depression always creeps up behind me at night for some reason. I’ll be honest here, one of the major reasons I chose now to take huge steps towards changing my life and joining Weight Watchers is because I’m very unhappy with where my life is on the social spectrum. I feel let down by my family and my friends. I’m sure they didn’t do it on purpose and it’s probably just my own self-esteem reminding me of some of my insecurities, but whatever the case may be, it doesn’t change how I feel.

Most of my life I have felt like the “red-headed step-child”. Always everyone’s last choice and last priority. This was even true where my parents are concerned. My Dad, he paid for everyone’s braces even his step-children’s braces (before he knew it was their father’s responsibility) and is having to pay for my little sister’s TWICE because he didn’t take her to her regular appointments. My braces? Nope. Never had them and if I ever do, it will be on my own dime. I guess I’m doomed to have a Madonna/Anna Paquin gap for the rest of my life. My Mom, given that I was her healthy child, all her care and concern was 85% for my brother. And hey, that was okay with me because his health was important and she never knew how long he’d be here with us.

And where my friends are concerned? Most of the friendships I’ve been in were just bad. I had one that only used me as a means to make them feel better about themselves. The others were short-lived for various other reasons. Most everyone else? All I am is the “Go-To” girl when they’re having a bad day or when they have computer problems. Bottom line: I’m never anyone’s first choice. Not as a daughter or as a friend. And hey.. I’ve been dealing with this for almost 26 years and I’ve pretty much gotten used to it. That’s why I’m excited about, FOR ONCE, being able to be selfish. Weight Watchers actually forces me to be. I can’t just do/have what everyone else wants anymore. I have to do/have what I NEED. And ya know what, it’s about time I start being selfish and do what’s best for myself! I can’t just constantly sacrifice what I need so others can be happy when they would trample me to get what THEY want.

I remember spending an evening out with a friend of mine who was of the male MARRIED persuasion. It was sorta awkward because it was just us two and we had just come out of a Church series saying that a spouse should never spend time with someone of the opposite sex ALONE. Luckily this guy was more of a big brother to me, but that experience really taught me a lot. He let the entire outing be all about me and what I wanted. It was so foreign to me! I didn’t even know how to think for myself because I’m so used to everyone else making the decisions and not ever having a say!

So welcome to the new me. If you don’t want me to be a priority in your life, then you can just keep on walking! It’s all about me from now on!