It’s been a rollercoaster, to say the least, over the last few days. The beginning of the week at work was just frustrating. My Dad was in this crazy irritable mood. We all wanted to ask him if he needed some Midol. It was really bad. He was arguing about every. little. thing. It got better towards the end of the week though. Although, I’m not sure if that’s because he was away from the office a lot and we just didn’t have to deal with his mood or if he was really in a better mood. I love him so much, though. Even though he can be unbearable at work. I just wish he’d calm down sometimes before he puts himself into the hospital one of these days.

I got sucked back into World of Warcraft and haven’t been around much. Mostly in part due to the Lunar Festival and Love Is In The Air events. I needed one more achievement for each of those to finish the World Event Achievement that rewards you with the 310% speed Violet Proto-Drake. So exciting! And then for a couple days I got a little addicted to the Random Dungeon Queue. That was until it sent me to the Oculus and I felt like a complete and total n00b. I straight left that one because I don’t think people are patient enough to deal with a first-timer in there where you have to fight using a dragon’s abilities. So that sorta put me off of the Dungeon Queue and the game for a while.

So, true to my nature, I put that hobby on the back-burner and jumped head first into reading and making jewelry again. I decided it was high time I start making jewelry for dolls. Seeing as how one of my “reasons” for getting a doll was to make/sell jewelry/accessories for them and earn some of that money back. I ordered my first doll a year ago and I’m only just now making jewelry for them. Better late than never? I made 4 necklaces and put them up for sale on my etsy so we’ll see how that goes! I’m also going to make some Mortal Instruments charm bracelets tonight and tomorrow and start selling them. Apparently that’s a steadily growing fandom and I’m the first result to pop up on Google when someone searches “Mortal Instruments Charm Bracelet” so I should probably take advantage of that while I can!

Also need to make some more Twilight bracelets since the next movie is really coming up on us pretty quickly! People need their loot for the midnight showing! I also need to go around on LJ communities, tumblrs, etc. and get a little bit more traffic to my etsy shop. SPEAKING OF: Two of my bracelets are on sale! $10.00 off, so check it out and tell a friend! I need to sell, sell, sell because I’m buying ANOTHER doll. It’s a “dream” doll that became available and it’s rare/highly sought after, so I couldn’t pass up the chance. I’m doing a layaway and I want to pay her off ASAP so she can come home. I’m contemplating the name Luccia. But that is very tentative, depending on if something better comes to mind when she arrives. Soooo excited.

Other than that, I’ve been sorta down lately.. I was just starting to feel settled and that things were the way they were supposed to be and that certain relationships were at least headed in a very healthy direction. I mean, yes. I’m human, I get upset over petty things and then a few minutes later I’m fine but I love my friends and family and it’s always a knee-jerk reaction for me to immediately feel bad whenever I get angry or think something negative about someone I care about. Because I know nothing is certain and every moment is precious and I would hate to miss the opportunity and look back and remember my very last thought about that person when they were living was something negative. I’m such a loving person and it absolutely destroys me to think that someone I care about thinks I feel anything but love for them and especially when it’s essentially my fault they feel this way. I’m a positive person. I don’t like negativity and thus I don’t feel like impulsively telling everyone what I think about them as I’m feeling it is the best way to go about things. That is unless I want to completely destroy a relationship over something I’ll be over 5 minutes later. I hate myself for ever even having a negative thought about anyone, even people that probably deserve it and I hate that because of an absent-minded, impulsive thought I had, I might have ruined a friendship or, at the very least, the progress that was being made to rebuild it to begin with.

Anyway, that probably makes no sense to most people and was just a bunch of rambling, but it’s what I’ve been feeling and I needed to get it out. I think I’m going to send an email later because I still get this feeling that things are unfinished and it’s eating away at me. Anyway, that’s about it for now. More to come later!

Well January is over and I’d like to think February will be better. I didn’t have to report for Jury Duty for the first week, which was good. I’m crossing my fingers that will be the case for the entirety of my two month service. I ordered some clothes that are actually cute and in my size, for a change. I guess that’s one good thing to come out of getting Jury Duty. It’s reminded me that I’m long overdue for an update to my wardrobe. I can’t even remember the last time I wore something other than jeans and a t-shirt. And it’s not that I like wearing it. It’s just comfortable, easy and I don’t have to deal with going shopping and trying on clothes. I hate shopping for clothes. There are never decent things in my size and all it does is depress me. So I’m excited that I’ve found some cute, comfortable clothes in my size. I think I need to save money and buy some more soon.

We had a pretty amazing snowstorm last weekend. It’s pretty much a rare commodity around here to get anything more than a dusting. So 6-7 inches was pretty remarkable for us. We were all like little kids. Unfortunately, they canceled/postponed the Owl City concert because of it. So bummed. I sold my tickets, so if they ever DO reschedule it, I’ll be so bummed. I’m hoping they don’t reschedule though or if they do it’s not the same openers. That way I’ll feel less sick about selling sold out tickets.

It sounds like we might be in for a bit more snow this weekend too. I guess we’ll see. Anyway, I took the opportunity to take pictures of my two dolls in the snow. Which reminds me, I got Briseis a new wig. Custom-ordered. I love it so much. I think I’m finally done buying/trying out wigs for her. Now I just need to find a new one for Zane! I’ve also really been itching to get another doll lately. But I’m not going to until I’ve made/sold some doll jewelry first. I’ve been gathering different materials for it. Ribbon, string, tiny beads, etc. I just need the motivation to start.

Otherwise, things have been okay. Mom’s wrist is doing good, but she’s still off work for another two weeks while she’s rehabilitating it. So I’ve been little Susy Homemaker lately, making dinner every night, going grocery shopping, and being the “Mom” at the moment by taking care of her. It’s been pretty pleasant actually. I actually quite enjoy it. :X But ya know, my life is so “unsatisfying” that instead of everything I’ve been doing lately I stirred up drama. At least, that was the word on the street. Good to know, since I’m pretty sure I’ve been too busy to purposely start anything. Maybe people should drag a stool to the mirror. If you’re all up on twitter stirring up a fuss, pretty sure you’re handling that role just fine without my help.

That does remind me though.. for a while, and more noticeably lately, I feel like I’m on a little raft drifting away from everything I’ve come to depend on. It makes me sad. I’m trying so hard to hold tight, but I feel like every year I go through a period where I feel like everyone is just running past me and leaving me in the dust. It’s a really depressing feeling. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. I feel invisible and insignificant to almost everyone lately. It’s like I’ve served my purpose for them and now they blow right past me. I don’t like it. But on the other end, I’ve also found that I’ve grown closer to a couple people because of it. I just wish that it didn’t work so much like a seesaw. I’d prefer for things to level out, ya know? Or maybe I’m just being selfish and I’m expecting too much. I should just be grateful for what I have instead of concentrating on what I don’t.

Anywho, I’ve been wanting to blog for a few days but the words just weren’t coming to me. So instead I was spending my free time listening to music and playing World of Warcraft. Seriously is there any better therapy? I don’t think so.