I still need to get cracking and customize this blog more but things have been outrageous lately. My Mom was on Spring Break all last week so I took the opportunity to take Friday off work to spend the day with her and help her get some stuff done. It probably would’ve been more productive but I think I spent 50% of the day on the phone for work. At least I know my work is valued since I can’t take a day off work without them requiring my help a few times. I also made two Twilight bracelets that I wanted to make to show at the Twilight Movie Party I went to Friday night. They vary a little bit from the usual Jacob and Edward ones I make so I’ll have to take pictures of them.

Speaking of jewelry, it’s so hard to sell Twilight-inspired Jewelry now. Back in the day I was one of maybe three people selling Twilight stuff on etsy but now there are pages upon pages of hand-made Twilight stuff. I think this means it’s time for me to branch out. So Harry Potter, Inkheart and kawaii jewelry is totally up and coming.

Anyway, the Twilight party was pretty fun. I made myself go even though I always feel so out of place with those people. I love them to death, I really do but I really have a hard time fitting in with anyone that lives near me. Maybe it's just everyone in general. I guess it doesn't help being the only one there that was single. Everyone else there was either married or in a relationship. And only one other person didn't have their significant other with them and the sad part is.. about half of them were about my age (a year older or a year younger). I think I might be alone forever but that's okay with me because A) I'm really picky. B) I refuse to have a failed marriage like my Mom and Dad did. And sadly, statistics don't really go in favor of long-lasting marriages.

Then on Saturday was my littlest sister's 15th Birthday. (I feel so old!) It's crazy to see her coming into her own. And I sorta see how I've maybe even influenced it so it makes me proud. She has an appreciation for all things original. It sorta makes me jealous too because some of the clothes she wears are things I would totally wear if they actually made stuff like that in my size. It sucks being fat.

Which brings me to my next point. I've noticed somethings lately that I feel is my body's way of poking me and saying: "YOU NEED TO BE MORE HEALTHY." I eat pretty healthily, I mean I don't overeat, I don't snack as much as I did when I was a kid and I eat my veggies. My problem is I just don't get enough exercise. The short routine is: Wake up, Go to Work, sit at a desk all day, go home, sit all day in front of the tv, computer or book. This needs to change! So I have to sacrifice something to change it. Sleep and time. So starting tonight it's time to pull out my trusty Wii Fit Balance Board and get back started on it. I miss it too. I love the energy I feel after having a steady workout. I probably would still be using Wii Fit daily if the new World of Warcraft expansion and Animal Crossing didn’t pull me away but I’m not in a video game mood right now anyway. Seriously it’s just stupid for me NOT to be working out. I can turn on my shows and do the freestyle aerobics on Wii Fit which is FAR more productive than sitting on the couch, right?

At any rate, that’s about all I have to report right now. Hopefully this coming weekend I’ll actually be able to sit down and work on this site some more. ALSO. MY HOSTEES. YOU NEED TO STOP SLACKING! Heather and Samantha get mad props for actually using their blogs.

I’ve had a rather interesting last couple of days. Sometimes I wish I could have a little conference with God and ask him what he’s up to. I’m too impatient to wait to find out what he has in store. Lately I can really feel him sculpting me and my life. I’ve been seeing my life as scenes in a movie and wondering if certain things that are happening are going to have some importance in the plot later down the line. I catch myself hitting pause for a second and imagining the different possible ways things could turn out. Am I the only one that does this? I admit, I have an active imagination but that might be just be another symptom of my undiagnosed ADD.

It’s very interesting how life turns out, though. It’s funny how you can look back on your life as if it’s an unfinished piece of writing that you set aside and notice things about it you didn’t notice before. I wonder how things would be different right now if I had realized some things sooner. I don’t have any regrets, just a bit of curiosity.

I suppose you might be wondering where this is all coming from. I saw someone this weekend that I hadn’t seen in oh.. 7 years? This happens pretty often since I still live in the same city I grew up in but most of the time these people will purposely ignore more, act like they didn’t see me or maybe they just don’t recognize me. Shoot, I’m guilty of doing the same thing. I didn’t keep in touch (other than on facebook or myspace) with majority (okay, ANY) of my friends from school. I always felt out of the loop even when I was in school with them and some of the things they do for fun just isn’t my scene. But this person I saw this weekend I probably knew the least out of any of my friends from school. And he not only remembered me but he actually made an effort to come over and say something to me. It floored me. I can’t stop thinking about it. I remember him as the only other kid sorta like me. Not very popular. Not really around a lot of other people. Kept to himself. Seemed a little shy. So I’m left wondering.. what would’ve happened if I had actually cared enough to get to know him better in High School? Would he have been that ONE person I could have been friends with? Would we have dated? Would we have kept in touch?

At any rate, this is where my head has been since yesterday. Up in the clouds, daydreaming about what might have been or what could be. I’m a firm believer in everything happens for a reason and I’m trying to over-analyze what reason God had for this little incident when I should just let it go. But this entire thing has been so ironic it makes me wonder. A few months ago something completely random happened that took me back to that class that I was in with him and I then later stumbled upon his MySpace and we exchanged a few messages/comments. A few months later, he got a girlfriend and I let it go. And now.. out of the blue the guy from my Spanish class who doesn’t even live in my city anymore is IN my city in a MEXICAN restaurant with his girlfriend. Come on. Admit it. It’s so ironic it’s funny.

Other than that I am so thankful my creativity has come back full swing. My brain is POURING with new ideas and I want to just create create create! My next project is going to be a fantasy themed charm bracelet. Most likely in pastel colors since I picked up these adorable fantasy findings at the craft store this weekend that were all pastel colored. I need to get some more charms and beads for it though. I’m also planning on ordering a bunch of really cute supplies from etsy to make some rings and maybe some bobby pins with.

My Mom is off work for a week for Spring Break (lucky dog!) so tomorrow we’re going to go out to lunch to celebrate what would have been my brother’s 27th birthday. I’ve been missing him quite a bit lately. I even had my first really ugly cry in a long time the other night because I was missing him so much. I was just reminded that he was my spontaneity and I miss it. I wish I was spontaneous like he was. I think I need to find a spontaneous boyfriend that will drag me out of my house on a whim and take me off on some random adventure.

Anyway.. I have more to write about but I suppose I should save it for later this week since I already wrote a novel. Quick shoutouts to my new hostees: Keight, Samantha and Tiffany! So happy you guys decided to let me host you. Excited to call you my blog “family”! And with that, I bid you all adieu!