Once again I basically failed to update more often this week. I think it’s safe to say instead I’ve been wasting time at work. I had a really odd week. I was able to waste time at work and I’m not really even sure how (although I think tumblr plays a large part in this). I know I did some work on blissmb.net for the most part. We had a couple new members join that I’m really loving. I swear even after 8 years, nothing makes me happier than when a new member joins and actually sticks around and posts! I hope they keep coming around!

So I guess I can scratch off one thing on my To Do List I posted last week but the problem is I just need to prioritize and determine what is the most important thing that I need to be doing and get it done! I think that step is key for me. Otherwise I get frazzled and lose what little motivation I had.

One thing I’ve been doing, that goes hand in hand with working on a Message Board, is getting back into making graphics. There are two things that motivate me most to make graphics. Great pictures and great fonts. So I decided to add a little more fonts to my collection and make a few requests for people! All of which were similar to the one I made for myself:

Sometimes a simple font with a splash of color and a simple pattern just does the trick! I’m hoping that it will spark enough creativity that I can make a theme or two for blissmb.net as well! We’ll see how it goes.

My journey on lucid dreaming has been quite a roller coaster this week. Definitely haven’t had any lucid dreams but I have been having 2-4 dreams each night that, for the most part, I can recall in great detail. Apparently this is an important part of eventually learning to lucid dream. I’ve been jotting down all the dreams I can remember in a notebook and I finally got a notebook today that I can use solely for that purpose.

I also got some closure this week on something that has been weighing me down a lot this year. I had been leaving that door cracked open and hoping for someone else to walk through it (instead of walking through it myself) and it didn’t happen. Also got a pretty clear message saying they had no intention or desire to walk through that door. I’m far too drained on that subject now to even be bothered by it. I’m not the type of person to quit on something but at some point I have to learn that it’s not always my responsibility to do ALL the work. If I’m working harder at something than everyone else, it’s time to let it go and let nature take it’s course. When one door closes another opens, right? Even though it’s sad that all that work has clearly meant NOTHING, I feel liberated! It’s like I traded my roots for wings!

Unfortunately, another weekend has just about bit the dust and I only accomplished one of the things I had set out to do. Honestly, I don’t even know what I spent all day yesterday doing. Other than grocery shopping and painting my nails, anyway. I made one new set of stamps for Bliss MB and that was it. I think what happens is that the board is so dead on the weekends that I don’t feel like working on it much even though I save all this work to do on it over the weekends. I remember a few years ago it was just the opposite, dead during the weeks and crazy active on the weekends. I guess that’s what happens when the members grow up. You no longer spend the weekend parked in front of a computer, you get out and do stuff. Nonetheless, it sorta depresses me and ruins my motivation to do any work on the board when there’s nobody around to do it for. Plus I feel like I’m the only one even trying to do something for the board on the weekends (all quotas go out the window apparently). I think this means we definitely need to find someone to put on staff that is likely to be on during the weekend because even I am not around on the weekends for the most part.

But enough of that! Today was pretty awesome. It’s great to start off a week with a really practical Church sermon that really is something I needed to hear. We were wrapping up a series called Surrender and today was about surrendering “People Pleasing” and instead focus on Pleasing God. I know for me I’m always trying to make everyone else happy. I obsess over being criticized and I obsess when I do something stupid/say something stupid because I care greatly what others think of me. And even though I know that it only matters what God thinks about me, it’s really easy to forget that. So today it was really something I needed to hear and now I feel really refreshed and rejuvenated having that reminder. I’m going to try and keep up that thinking from here on out and use the Web Notes to hopefully give that mindset some roots.

In addition, keeping with my obsession with dreams. I’ve decided I’m going to start training myself to lucid dream. It’s crazy how I already do some of the things that guide suggests but I’m really excited to actively try this out. Dreams have always fascinated me and after seeing Inception that fascination has only increased tenfold. I’m even going to pull out my old dream guide book and dive back into that. I still need to find a dream journal or something that I can use to record my dreams in as well as get another journal for creative expression. I’ve been feeling really inspired creative-wise as well thanks to hitREcord.org. I’ve RECorded for some collaborations and just being on that website browsing everyone’s creations makes me feel happy and inspired and I want to learn to do new things and experiment and create!